It's been a long long long time since i've updated. I should really start updating regularly in order to pen down every single thoughts of mine.. 

It's been a mind-fucking month for me.. It's tedious.. It's tiring, as well as exhausting. Things ended and I still can't move on. It shouldn't be the case. It's always, "everything's ended and we've all moved on.." but i can't.. As much as i want to move on, i can't. I really can't.. I miss you, i'm missing you a lot and i wonder if you'll ever know. All i ever wanted was you to spent time with me, have a proper date, you not being so "black-faced" and them to really not drive my back up the wall. All these isn't going to happen and it's really tedious to be so so afraid and having to worry this and that.. Yet, you couldn't do anything.. All you had in mind was soccer and work.. What else.. Nothing else mattered if these two were in place. It was in the past and nothing has change over the years that we've been together. I tried telling you but you just wouldn't care. So many if only, but how many of them did actually happened. Out of 10, only once.. and it never last.

I thought after the week away to Phuket would let me have a clearer view but somehow it didn't. It was more like me escaping whenever i could.. Each time I get out of here, I would remind myself, "Okay, i would take this time to think everything over and once i'm back, i'm going to deal and face all of it.." Never once did i manage to face it. This is all because i know i would really miss you. I really love you, i really do.. I know i wouldn't be able to handle it if everything were to come to an end and this is why i've been letting it drag on and always telling you how i felt. But you never once did listen nor cared.. What more can i say? What more can i do? Nothing. There really isn't anything more that i can do. If only you pulled me back.. If only you would make your way all the way down showing me how much i meant to you..

17

Hi!! I'm waiting for bebe to meet me after his work! Can't wait to see the boy 'cause I'm simply missing him a lot. Didn't work ytd and today and neither am I tmr. Hehe, I'm in holiday mood already!! 3 more days and I'm flying to HK with V, F, Bee & WX. WOOOO, EXCITED MUCH!

Did some packing of clothes for HK and shall continue the rest later in the night..

Meanwhile, one picture of me camwhoring.. :D

CLUB WITH THE GIRLS

HELLO!!!! Last night was crazy!! Club at Phuture with Liz and Jean and it was fucksome! TOTALLY MISSING THE NIGHT.

Out for drinks and one thing for sure, BECARDI APPLE SUCKS. $@^#&@^#&*

Anyways, went in to club, and the usual. Group of guys got into a fight. Lol?

After club, some holland dude wanted to buy us hotdogs? HAHAH!! SERIOUSLY? I wouldn't mind a drink but hotdogs at club? No thank you.

And apparently our names changed to, Sally (LIZ), Jane (Jane) and Ashley (me). ahha! couldn't help but laughed when we were saying those names out.

While waiting for Liz..

At Phuture's toilet. hahah!

Clearly shown, girls can literally camwhore anywhere and everywhere.

GREAT NIGHT OUT!!! FREAKIN' LOVE YOU TWO TO DEATH MAN

15- Double date @ ECP

HELLO!! It has been a fun day today!! Took quite a few photos with bebe, Wika and Ya Lun! Will post a proper update about it asap!!!! I'm super tired now.

14- Double Date

Going for a picnic this coming Thurs! Initially the plan was zoo, however bebe couldnt make it in the morning and thus, we've got no choice but to settle for a picnic. :( That aside..

What's more excitable is that it's going to be a DOUBLE DATE this thurs! Me, bebe and along with Wika her boyfriend Ya Lun. I'M SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT! I'm just afraid that there would be an awkward silence amongst us.. Shall see how on that day and i'm praying hard that nothing goes wrong as well as them getting along well.

Meanwhile, i'm deciding what to cook and bake for this Thurs!

Probably,

Oreo truffles?

Potato salad?

Yep, most probably these two.. heheh! Hope the 3 of them will love it!

13- The night is forever young

As the title says, The night is forever young. Yes, it would be forever young whenever you're out partying till the next morning!

This was taken way back to last year. Shumei met me and Jean for dinner before me and J headed off to PH.

Jean!

Some time later (I can't really recall when), headed to club again..

Went to some bar at clark quay to chill and drink..

Went over to DF after lights on at Ph & waited for bebe to end work.

And as usual, his friends would be doing something funny at the bg.

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Then, club with bee and his friends.. First time clubbing with them and it was rather fun! We went to Rebel.

This definitely is one of the many photos that i adore

While waiting for cab,

@ Butterfactory

Saw serene and took a pic with her.

Some other days at Rebel

Coincidentally, met Leon at Rebel

w the girls

This was taken at ph, celebrating kat's advance birthday.

That's all!! I've enjoyed myself a great deal!!!!

12- 200212

Happy 62months Dearest baby!

11- A lovely Satuday spent.

18 FEB 2012

My Saturday was awesome.First of all, i woke up freaking early whereby Kat apparently spammed me 17 calls. However, i was already up and changing and so, i didn't manage to answer her calls. hahaha!! She must have swore on me man. Okay, anyways, woke up and the daily routine begins.. Bathed and changed and off I went to meet Kat at Serangoon mrt. We took a train down to Bedok and had lunch at the food court before heading over to East Coast Park. It was suppose to be a fruitful trip at ECP BUT, the rain stopped us from doing so. We still headed down to ECP for some Adoption dogs event thing and they were super cute! Though most were typical stray dogs, but still they're so so adorable.

Few pictures of the dogs taken at ECP

This maltese is god damn cute. It loves being around ppl and its tail would start wagging non-stop.

Okay, this I swear is a freaking fat golden retriever.

It was still raining and thus me and kat decided to head back to my house to change. Initially we wanted to head down to town. But we got lazy and so we changed the plan to heading down to Hougang Stadium to watch bee's soccer match. After bee's match, headed back to his place as i needed the toilet badly. After which, me and Kat went over to Compass point to meet Michelle and off we went to brewbaker's at Anchorvale CC.

With Mich & Kat, while waiting for our crispy platter!

Crispy Platter (think it's called that) that taste not bad. Love the wings.

One last shot before we start on the food..

After finishing our food, we changed to another table for drinks! Ordered 1 tower. :)

Received text and call from Daniel and they said they would come down to join us. The thing is, i didn't know Wika and YL would be joining us too. So upon seeing them, i was practically over the moon!

Yalun and Wika!

The rest who came down with Wika and YL

Caught you in action!!!!

Don't know what is he smiling about.

3 lovelies whom i love a lot!

Guess who?! SEXY RIGHT!?

Mich gone crazy..

Ending with my face!

It was a fun and lovely night spent with them. It has been quite some time since I've had this kind of fun. H2H talks, Random talks, drinks, games.. All-in-one, I've enjoyed every single bit and I'm missing this particular night already. <3